princessofcrap

2007-11-29T19:42:00.000+08:00

being confined within these 4 walls is not at all appreciated.antibiotics have caused it to reduce much, thk goodness.I cannot go for training looking like the Hunchback of Notre Dame.

next week promises some fun with the grandma yo!

2007-11-29T14:36:00.001+08:00

eye eeez soopah BOREDzzz.

eye ken juz DIEzzz.

2007-11-28T22:48:00.000+08:00

I am pretty annoyed at the parentals for not allowing me that. And it has been a significant amount of time that has passed since I last threw a tantrum.

Because their decision is unfair and I am absolutely not satisfied with the crapshitrubbish that they pass of as their "it is valid and this is final" reasons.

2007-11-25T22:10:00.000+08:00

I am really bad at html codes.Really really bad.I tried to change my blogskin because I've been using the previous one for too long already.But smthg screwed up and it all turned out fug so i've decided to use this standard template temporarily, until I figure out these damn codes.

till then.much love

2007-11-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

I made a list of the times I was there for you and compared it to the times you were there for me.

It's obvious which was longer.The latter.

How disappointing, really.

2007-11-06T21:05:00.000+08:00

I honestly have to stop this bad habit of procrastination.We go way back but it's about time it ended. Tmr's the final deadline for the submission of my I&R. I had the entire day today, entire day yesterday and probably the whole of last weekend too. But noooo, being the special person that I am, I just had to push it to now.Or maybe later on in the night.

But somehow or rather, I feel that my productivity rate is most efficient in the wee hours of the morning.Which can both good and bad in some ways.

Digression.

And see, instead of actually committing perhaps 1 solid hour to doing my work, I have succumbed to the temptation of the WWW. Here I am blogging( and I think my blog needs to be revamped pronto.the blogskin is so ytd) and researching on insolvency which intrigued me lately.

I ~~want~~ neeed a holiday so so badly. I want to go to Bali again plsplspls):

2007-11-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

hello jello.

un;
to amira&sharifa for helping out even though it requires you to look beyond horrible.sr038 thanks you muchos.

deux;
things have been awesome foursome, more so with JY's company 4 days this week.[you owe me slut!no one would get out of their nap,get dressed in 15 mins, and rush down just to accompany you to tanjong pagar.]the best friends are okay(haha!)and starbucks java chip is love.

trois;
photographs. because i was bored.

happy halloween

2007-10-12T00:17:00.000+08:00

TO MY ONE AND ONLY SISTALURPKXZX WHO TURNS SEVENTEEN TODAY(finally..)!

I wish I could say a million things, but no amount of words could ever express how much I looove this MINAH of mine(cheyydebahh!hahahahaha).

Happy Birthday Amira Darling!

2007-10-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

The shocking announcement cause quite a ruckus in school this morning and those not taking h2 mathematics will have a free day tomorrow to go gallavanting around having tons of fun while I WILL BE STUCK MUGGING FOR BLOODY MATH.AGAIN. not that i actually did for the first try, because i absolutely detest h2 mathematics and nowwww nowwww i'd have to spend the next 36 hours or so cramming mathematical concepts into my brain that has already left for its much needed vacation in BORA BORA.

That's a loong journey and im sure it wouldnt make it back in time for the paper. But even if it did, it wouldnt be much of a help either.

2007-09-27T21:06:00.000+08:00

For the girl who couldn't jump high enough,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUN !

AND JUST FOR GLAMOUR.......

HAHAHAHHAA.

2007-09-16T02:30:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i feel like i'm the biggest bitch ever(BBE!), what with all my thoughts and comments.but i keep them to myself, and that's the difference between me and you.

You, yes you, whoever you may be.

Spread the unnecessary and criticize as if you're flawless.Darling, you're not.

You,yes you, whoever you may be.

&there is no need for me to manifest this hatred.simply because my life has got no time set aside for me to get worked up over trivial matters like you.

You, yes you, whoever you may be.

2007-09-10T21:52:00.000+08:00

the lack of sleep does absolutely no good for my complexion.not that it's flawless to begin with, which is precisely the point isn't it?that the state of my skin is deteriorating with the emergence of pimples and eye bags and white/yellow/green/magenta/blackheads.i should have heeded their advice.

promos is one major skank.not that i'm actually mugging hard enough, yet.For you see, procrastination and I, we have this special relationship where the love is just dynamic and irresistible.It really is hard to let go.

and i think drinking redbull excessively is b-a-d.becauseee when you consume too much of it, your system just grows immune to its effects.and then it doesn't work as effectively as before.so you will still tire easily and knock out pretty soon.

oh & besides, there's always the risk of early age diabetes, kidney failure and whatnots.Anddd not neglecting the possibility of your heart exploding(someone told me that)

buttt that aside, i still love my redbull muchos(LIKE NACHOS and sistalurpxz) and no stupid bullshit can make me stop drinking it.everrrrrrrrrrrr.

today was a so-so day.

it's been awhile since i've written one of these here's-what-i-did-today-so-let-me-bore-you-to-death-with-the-boring-shit-that-happen-in-sr-wooo
type of entries.

probably the one most interesting thing was skipping lect. with sistalurpx. evading tutors and subject mates is not an easy task.we had to make sure we were invinsible.the adrenaline rush..oh the thrill of it all.hahahha.we're good girls whaaat,eh?

Haha.& I think sisterlurpx finds me annoying but she loves me too muchos(again, like nachos, which btw she had already TANAM-ed).

2007-09-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

the ikea catalogue is here, finally! after weeks of silent awaiting. haha how odd, that i get so worked up over a bloody catalogue.but if you know me, you'd know that im crazy over ikea.so there.

the week break begins tomorrow, and i must must do something productive.

after promos, it'll be me and THE OC DVD SEASON 1-4 and my french moviessssss. cant wait cant wait.

till soon.kbye

2007-09-01T20:15:00.001+08:00

All your fabricated lies, so selfish.But here i stand, unaffected.And I wish I could hate you with all my heart.To never have to acknowledge your existence in my life. But I can't, no matter how hard I try.

Cause I can deny it a million times, but you're still that person I will look up to.Not because I'm obliged to, because I choose to.

just leave it be? to harbor in this charade? how long can this last, before we all crumble.

2007-08-23T21:19:00.000+08:00

clearing the mountains of worksheet dumped on the shelves, i stumbled upon my racial harmony 2005 cd.ohhhh how times have changed, and appearances too.

some, i must say, have made noticeable improvements in the looks department.

esp JIA YU who should thank God for the change.hahahhaa.(im such a bitch, i know.but you still love me)

&it's the little things we do that keep the friendship going be it a phone call, text msg or even an MSN conversation.

i'm extreeeemely pleased with SRJC girls' team for the determination.wonderful game played by every single one of them.

weeee.

2007-08-20T22:51:00.000+08:00

all thanks to pops, im addicted to this.

TONIGHT AT NOON
( Adrian Henri, British Poet and painter 1932-2000)

Tonight at noon
Supermarkets will advertise 3p extra on everything
Tonight at noon
Children from happy families will be sent to live in a home
Elephants will tell each other human jokes
America will declare peace on Russia
World War I generals will sell poppies on the street on November 11th
The first daffodils of autumn will appear
When the leaves fall upwards to the trees

Tonight at noon
Pigeons will hunt cats through city backyards
Hitler will tell us to fight on the beaches and on the landing fields
A tunnel full of water will be built under Liverpool
Pigs will be sighted flying in formation over Woolton
And Nelson will not only get his eye back but his arm as well
White Americans will demonstrate for equal rights
In front of the Black house
And the monster has just created Dr. Frankenstein

Girls in bikinis are moonbathing
Folksongs are being sung by real folk
Art galleries are closed to people over 21
Poets get their poems in the Top 20
There's jobs for everybody and nobody wants them
In back alleys everywhere teenage lovers are kissing in broad daylight
In forgotten graveyards everywhere the dead will quietly bury the living
and
You will tell me you love me
Tonight at noon

2007-08-19T21:21:00.000+08:00

rainy sunday afternoons are sucha slutface i swear.i have not done anything, nothing! nada! zilch! zerroooooo.

i shall not sleep tonight, seriously.

will pop by SPC shortly to stock up on the redbull.then its a mugging marathon.

and as always,

kbye.

2007-08-19T13:56:00.000+08:00

I need to develop a sense of urgency, something i have been lacking in since..forever.Or some form of motivation that can at least surpass 24hours.It really is very depressing to realise that you've got a load of shit to complete on a rainy sunday afternoon. :(

saturday was gone, too much giggling at starbucks with amira&joshua and running around the house annoying the brother.And so today, I shall have to face the dire consequences of wasting my time yesterday, doing nothing productive.

3 history essays, 2 math tutorials, 1 karangan and my OP script, all of which that has accumulated since Godknowswhen.

Mr Redbull, I'll be your bestfriend and you'll be my valentine tonight.

2007-08-12T19:57:00.000+08:00

for all the anticipation and constant reminding of this big day, count your lucky stars it's over.no more miss annoying birthday girl.

today wasnt exactly the best of birthdays but thank you everyone for the well wishes.
MUCH LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE (:

happy birthday to Joshua Aaron Jude Xavier!and all you other 12 august babies out there.

2007-08-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

its funny how you can love a person with all your heart, and then hate their guts the next moment.

im not talking about stupid bgr rships, please, that issue is so minor anyone affected by it should seriously take a gun and shoot themselves.

just when im delirious, ive been thrown down the same hole i was once in before. it's not very nice there, its dark. i'm not scared, im a brave girl.and i know i can climb out of it, ive done it plenty of times.

but maybe, this time i want to stay in there for awhile.away from all the pretense that cloud our minds.

2007-08-05T19:36:00.000+08:00

i am a happy happy kid today. *beams

small indulgence,maybe insignificant to you rich fools.but i like my new player. so much that i think i'll name him (yes, it's a him, because i refuse to carry ard a her in my purse) ... Marcel Lacroix.it's french and i think ze french are sexy.

And suddenly i feel all nostalgic remembering Francis Castillos. such sweet memories of that vintage rocker& the countless hours wasted on snake just to beat fats's high score.

and oh. me and smudge, we're on a timeout.for reasons i'm sure we're all pretty clear about. but heyyy i've liked him since leeds so what's that compared to newcastle eh.we'll see we'll see...

in the mean time, meet my current beau.. ROBIN THICKE.

i loved his songs the moment i first heard brand new jones.and so i dl-ed the rest anddd i just had to google him and i did. and wahhhh. double combo seyyy!

good looks(not to mention body) +charming vocals = to die for.

2007-08-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

ella ella eh eh eh under my umbrellaaaa.

blue roses to match!how childishly exciting and cool.friendship bands are so last century yaw.

promos are nearing and im still that indolent bugger who impugns fatigue for being the main culprit to my procrastination of tutorials and revision.

at least, im getting math now. slowwwly, but surely.

happy note, TheDay's coming in less than a fortnight.and im still the world's most annoying birthday girl ever.

& i suddenly miss all my smelliessssss and how it used to be. coffee soon, you hear?

haahahaha.

2007-07-31T21:33:00.000+08:00

LE SIGHHHSSS.
talk about opportunity cost man.

TALK ABOUT OPPORTUNITY COST.

how apt that i have an econs mock test tmr.
oh wellssssss, madame serendipity, it would be really lovely to see you soon.

2007-07-21T18:32:00.001+08:00

I awoke to the sound of the doorbell. This, followed by the usual “ifaaaaa”, was an obvious indication of their return. So I came down, still groggy until I spotted an orange paper bag with the words Bloomsbury printed at the bottom.

And so, for the past 1 ½ hours, I have apparated into the wizarding world, too engrossed to put it down. Alas, for the sake of my college education ( and also because I can’t bear to finish it up too quickly), I have decided to stop and start doing my portion of the WR.

I thought I’d outgrown it. But it seems like I’m a Potter kid through and through. The final installment, 8 years after Mummy presented me with my first Harry Potter book, way before the whole hype began. Dad, surprisingly, bought it on his own accord.

And I am wayyy toooo enticed to flip to the last chapter. But I cannot succumb to this temptation and shall find out about the ending the hard way(like it or not), by reading it page by page.

On another note, last night was rather enjoyable. A different company altogether, but everyone was nice.

kbye.

2007-07-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

.emo shemo, i'll save the crying for a rainy day.with B&Js &mushy movies& smudge on the couch.noone does the best bf like him.

it's my blog and ill say whatever i want to.call me deluded or MENTAL but you still can't stop me.haha!

maybe it's the stress, or the red bull that's kicking in.

but say hello to my pet, Superman.haha pops!

2007-07-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

THE OC soundtracks are the equivalent to melted chocolate fudge cake cookies.

2007-07-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

i think explosm.com's the funniest shit everrr.

Okay, so in the light of my horrendous results, I, Nur Afifah Ariffin, have decided to make some new resolutions.& I plan to dutifully keep to them, so that my life will now have some sort of a purpose.lolll.

Today was well spent sleeping.My assignments are left untouched and so tmr would be a mugfuck day.

And Hey!I don't have the chicken pox! so much for all the excitement and embarrassment in the malay class and the rumors(read:fara!) going around.

see you lovelies soon.

2007-07-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

just like the wind that blew me off balance.
but i'm still smiling; maybe I overestimated the significance of it.
it's surprising how easy im willing to let it go.

2007-07-09T19:52:00.001+08:00

i'm terrified. holy fuck, i am.Ds aren't even the bare minimum and yet my grades are far from it.sub-passes are so not acceptable. june hols were a fucking waste, so it's time now to get back on track, well more like start the bloody mugfest since i've just been pretty much screwing my life so far.

enough with the nagging at other ppl to start with their studying, lest they will retain and leave me alone, friendless.question now is, what if i dont get freaking promoted.omgozz.

sometimes when i'm commuting alone, i get random thoughts formulating in my messed up mind.and when i say random, they really are random.often, they're provoked by something that i witnessed.but sometimes, they come just like that.

and i always promise myself to blog about it.but i never do cause i forget about them once i'm here.

2007-07-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

happy birthday mima!

2007-07-06T22:50:00.000+08:00

cupid should just go fuck cows or smthg.

2007-07-02T17:06:00.000+08:00

weekend was bliss.

saturday-kallang's last roar.

no photos of the fireworks cause i suck so bad at snapping fireworks, it isn't even funny.

&sunday evening was spent at The Arts House.omgoodness sucha pretty pretttttty place.watched 2 malay plays with mun; one on polygamy and the other on kampung modernization.Hilarious, and beautifully executed.The acting by the last cracko guy was top class.superb, i tell you.

& it's things like these that make me miss drama so so sooo bad.the countless hours of rehearsals, the last-min stress, the memorizing of lines...and mono-bloody-logues.

i miss rehearsals. i miss the haunted house, how we'd always enter halfway and then run out screaming even though we know that the ghost's only marcus. i miss the roller chairs race ard the forth floor, and the times we played baseball in the training room with a rattan ball and a bamboo pole, the one-squared discotheque, bombing ourselves, BM sessions!!

seeeee how could I not love my bowen drama, you tell me?

2007-06-26T16:58:00.000+08:00

You have no idea how much I hated math.like fuck, bodoh!hahait was manageable, yes, but i couldn't solve a single shit.im gg to fail miserably, omgoodness. &then halfway i wanted to just give up and decided to turn to my stress reliever buddy, Block Dude, when I realised that he was gone! Vanished from the storage of my gc cause we had to bloody clear the effing memory.the torture of that half an hour's wait till 1500hrs with nothing to do!rahhhh.

& ive let my poor old arthritis-ridden tutor down:(

but i will persevere on and not give up and laterrrrrrrr i will become a budak yang bijak bestari!watch me.

2007-06-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

CHICAS DE FUTBAL @ DIVA LA FUTBAL

omgoodness, great great fun.CHICAS! made it to the QF for the Champions Cup.I am super proud of my CHICAS! okay.& Fara, wah fara baik ah, cheyyy(dont kembang)&We played in a very carefree manner, laughing at all the stupid blunders we made.

photosssssssssssssss(:
CHICAS! is love(&see, i told you all to take picture b4 the matches!)
chicas's angels; anna me fara.the original trio who
are forever COINCIDENTALLY on the same team.
rachel&I, camwhoring when we actually promised to do econs.

anywayyys, i've realized that all my friends are weird people.the long time buddies, the new pals i've made and probably the next lot of people i'll get acquainted with.butttt, i've come to accept their eccentricity and umm uniqueness, and i love them all muchos.

2007-06-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

4 hours of sleep ytd, thanks to someone's horrible singing over the phone, pretending to be Ryan Atwood & Nathan of OTH (neverrrrrrrr!), attempting to play bella luna and dragging the conversation till practically dawn.(Yes, this part's you)

3 hours of math was a killer, rachel&I were probably brain dead after that.

2 hours of trying to stuff econs into my brains after math.attempt obviously faltered, due to my distraught state of mind.& other distractions, like CJ and Anna.

1 hour of econs again(chey chey) before i retire to bed.

DIVA LA FUTBOL tmr.7.30am at Boon Lay, that's just crazy talk.I am so not a morning person.But, what wouldn't I do for my CHICAS eh?

2007-06-21T21:17:00.000+08:00

omg i doomed for mids, i swear. i planned to mug today but of course, with the company of slenge bacins like marr&amira&shrtl, work can never be done.Because us 4 decided to get our hair done at the nearby saloon.Marr this is all cause of you ok!But it was fun cause i haven't seen them in a long time.

anddddd now im super stressed i dont know why.but i hate it when i get all stressed up because my brain just cant function properly and so i get frustrated when i cant solve/memorize/understand stuff and thennn i get even more stressed.

rahhhhhh.

2007-06-20T20:27:00.000+08:00

I flicked through the channles and Nigella's Feasts was on travel&living.For some reason, I didn't change the channel and continued on watching.I especially love her gorgeous kitchen.It's nothing high-tech, not the futuristic interior we commonly see in kitchens today.The country feel of the pure white setting that just somehow exudes sophistication.

So anyways, ytd was fun with the mild soccer "training" in the morning(though i barely did anything much since my ankle's inured and also cause i am such a lazy ass), following sheereen back to get her cert at bowen and hence having to make the long trip back to the bus stop to avoid a certain area cause she's afraid she'll get possessed and that i'll just run away and leave her lying there and topped it off with a trip to JBS with efy(ive nvr actually called her that, but yeah) for the evening match.

And todayyyy's my ANNA's brithday.(see i even coloured it purple cause i know you like purple[: )

SO happy birthday you smelly pantat! CHICAS FOR LIFE.

and the studying was pretty productive too.econs is fun when you actually understand it.math on the other hand, is still as shitty as ever.period.

2007-06-18T02:29:00.000+08:00

When this sudden wave of negative emotions engulfs you, it smashes you against the sharp rocks over and over again, till you practically bleed to death, and then it pulls you back to deep shark - infested waters to drown you, just to make a 100% sure you're dead.

It's like a roller coaster ride and i'm getting pretty nauseous.i want to get off, but something tells me that queasy feeling's worth the ride.

well, nothing lasts forever anyway.

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way♥

i must thank Sabrina truckloads for sending me the entire maroon5 album because i'm absolutely in love with it. haha

cheer up world, and smile, cause you're worth it.hahahahaha

2007-06-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

mom's back.and that's the end of our "12 days of joy"(haha) quote fats.but I havent even gotten to really missing her yet so it just shows how fast 12 days can fly by.

whoever said that toothpaste could be used to get rid of pimples can screw his/herself cause toothpaste burns your skin, bodoh!eurgh.and now i look absolutely fug, thanks.

which may just be a blessing in disguise actually.cause then, i will tend to stay in and be forced to mug for mids.

but stilllllllllllllllllll........

bad skin seriously stomps on your self-esteem.it's worse than being fat, in my opinion that is.

2007-06-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

I did APGP today and i feel so pleased with myself, ignoring the fact that i only attempted 4 questions.But hey,it still is a feat to me.And I managed to study a bit more of other subjects too.And this calls for celebration, baby!Let's go out and party the night away........

If only I could walk properly, that is.

My ankle muscle's giving me problems.It's not swollen or anything, so I have no idea what's wrong it.And I think I wrapped the elastic bandage around it too tightly.But it hurrrrtssssss OH THE PAIN, I tell you.So maybe that was a little exaggerated but point is, it hurts.

I am rotting to death at home.I cannot do any physical activity due to the injured leg and so i cannot execute my lose weight plan with full efficiency.And since I need not wake up early for my jogs, i tend to sleep into the afternoon, which is bad.Cause then I wake up hungry, and there's no proper meal, so i binge.On chipsmore and oreo and coke!omg fat.

& I'm desperate for a good read.Yes, mids are in less than a fortnight away, but i swore never to fall into the category of jc freaks who read nothing else except their lecture notes, model essays and the occasional newspaper articles.

Paolo Coelho's books are addictive, i love that guy.Even though they're sorted under the meta-physics section and some of his books tend to speak of the Divine Energy and refer to God as a woman.But I trust my faith's strong enough(cheyyy).To date, I have read 4 books, including his latest Like a flowing river which is basically a compilation of many short stories, about latin american myths, legends, his encounters that each hold a strong value or sentiment.And i enjoy them, these short stories.

&maybe on some nights, I miss you.

2007-06-11T21:10:00.000+08:00

If i could get another chance
another walk, another dance
with you...

I'll play a song that would never ever end.♥

2007-06-11T00:32:00.000+08:00

I seriously need that one tight slap to wake me up. Right now, I’m still in that slack mood and it annoys the crap out of me. And yet, as always, I do absolutely nothing about it.

I plan, and plan, and plan some more.Monthly,weekly and daily schedules that are overwhelming.And of course, a little too idealistic.It's unattainable given the no. of available hours there are in a day.But still, I continue to live in denial and choose to believe in my unquestioned(hah!) capabilities.That somehow, someway, I will complete all tasks and hence be able to celebrate my accomplishments with an outing or smthg.

Obviously, the tasks remain unfinished but the celebrations are carried out anyways.

Coming to SR wasn't exactly my plan.It never was.But being here doesn't mean that my aspirations will falter, crumble and be no longer in existence.Because success is not dependent on the route you take, what counts is the fact that you reach your desired destination.And maybe its due to the conversation with zaki about our ambitions and other people's failures that has driven me into this sudden state of anxiety, but I'm glad I'm actually realizing it now, 2 weeks before mids.

Academically, I'm coping fine.I just need to get my ass to work.(say hello, Mr.Redbull!)Except for my language, both of them, which seem to deteriorate at an alarming pace. I must stop being a minah la sia because it doesn't seem to help the slightest bit with my malay. Imagine, I had problems conversing in proper malay during my oral, to the point where I had to use english to argue with cikgu about my seemingly valid points. Understandably, I was never erm.. verbally inclined in malay (well neither am i that great in my written work as well), but the condition of my spoken malay now is beyond pathetic.

On a totally random note, syafiq sends me songs online that initially i find abit odd but after awhile, i tend to grow on them and they're actually pretty nice.Except for that telepopmusik- smile one because that one, I felt as if I was in the twilight zone or something.And it's freaky because i used to have a phobia of twilight zones when i was young.Sometimes I even felt as if I was being deported into some other dimension, where everybody else were zombies or vampires and i was the only human.hahaha I doubt that had any link with the twilight zone but it's just something i felt like sharing.

And maybe, just maybe, I'm a little weird too.
haha, say people say yourself!

2007-06-09T20:19:00.001+08:00

Camp was cut short.Besides, it was just not going well for me.

The week was basically wasted, nothing accomplished at all.No tutorials done and still that lost in math.But nvm, I shall not procrastinate any further and begin my studying.....after i'm done with this post just because i'm such a good girl.

Friday we hit the street soccer court near bowen and the night was spent in town walking around aimlessly.Today I managed to catch Ocean's 13 with EDDDY(: and we walked some more and my feet are sore now thanks to my wedges.I neeeeeeed cash badly.The GSS is unbelievable and to make things worse, mum's not in town to shop with me.

my pizza order's still not here and i called like 3hrs ago.im super hungry and you wont like me when im angry, cause i bite bitch!rahhhhhhhhhh!

2007-06-03T18:17:00.001+08:00

and life has been kinda sweet these past few days(:

thurs morning was spent at some street soccer court.MB alert; my dear, not only are you already such a troll(with humongous boobies!), you're a chauvinistic one at that.

friday night at TPJC's manisfestasi, and just suddenly you'll feel all semangat melayu.

for all the times on the field,cause we were the bomb tghr.
&saturday, we decided on CHICAS! and Duddette United(lisa's idea) as our team names for Diva La Futbol.Truth be told, I see not much of a chance to win anything.So basically, we're in it for the fun and we're going to gel and go mad.

I have camp next week and i don't feel the least bit excited.Mom's gg away for 2 weeks and Im gg to miss her like fuck.

2007-05-29T22:57:00.000+08:00

i feel guilty at times, but i think that its unfair for me to shoulder the entire blame. i have not met my bffs in a looooong time.we're all busy with our own schedules and extremely tied down with assignments and shit.

i chanced upon this postcard from someone who asked me to trust him with my inner thoughts.New late night buddies, new gal pals.A whole new world to explore.Sure, new experiences will come.But will these outshine the old ones? Love and understanding have grown for four years.Hard to comprehend why it's all ending.Life goes on they say.

2007-05-28T20:42:00.000+08:00

yknow, sometimes i worry for my sanity.but that's a whole other story...

2007-05-26T13:12:00.000+08:00

today i plan to stay in and perhaps catch up on a few things, school work and even sleep!& my guess goes to the latter being fulfilled first. eyebags are not pretty, period.

it was good to say it all out, albeit through a deceitful manner.but at least i wont have to feel awkward anymore, i hope.

2007-05-24T22:48:00.001+08:00

"Everything"

You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

2007-05-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

have i mentioned just how much i looooooooooove Buble.

sorry bestie.I knew you were anxiously awaiting my arrival, so much so that you even broadcasted your excitement.ilu many & i'll make it up to you with B&J, promise.

2007-05-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

& just when i thought monday crappy enough, hellooo tuesday. as if the world was going to end tomorrow.at least salvage my lunch period, it's the least im asking.

today was awfully draggy.all the stressing over the solution for MI presentation was a complete waste of time.10 mins of lunch and i binged, again, on fatty unhealthy trash.I need to curb my cheesels&pink guava addiction.but i just can't.....they're so baguuus.lit tut was probably the savior.sch ended fuck late with additional econs. thank goodness pw's cancelled, lest my brains would have just die out flat.

i nvr knew the pandora's box analogy could be applicable to so many things.hah!

2007-05-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

& i think the pandora's box is better left untouched.for fear of whatever that lies within, oblivion is perhaps bliss.cause i don't want to know what i dont want to know.

i feel so helpless in math.I'm seriously hoping Ili can pull me out from this realm of nothingness.I have never been lost in math! i mean, yeah, my grades aren't fantastic but at least i know shit! im sooo lost.rahhh.

&screw the bloody GC okay.it's such a fuckface.

CHEER UP WORLD, cause that's the best advice i can give you right now.

2007-05-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

PRICELESS

'twas nice, the storyline,the sexy french accent the scenery, the designer dresses&shoes&bras!&maybe even the slenge company. i'd pay a dime, for 10 more seconds.

i'd like to... i'd love to...kiss you.

2007-05-19T21:00:00.000+08:00

season's ended. omggg my Mons&Weds&Fris are gg to be sooo empty.rahh.im gnna miss the seniors loads and it really is amazing how bonded the team is.we're probably the most undisciplined team in the bloody league, but hey, we're having a blast.with all the spastic, retarded& bodo- with- a- H things we do.& late-night catching and mrt anddddddd all.

have i ever mentioned how i hate the orange jersey cause it makes me look FAT.eurgh.

school term's ending pretty soon.but june's gnna suck cause MYEs are approaching.

2007-05-12T19:38:00.000+08:00

rahh we won.but we're still a mile away from even qualifying though.But cmon sr, we can do it.

ive passed all my tests so far, which is a good sign.i think.even though the majority happens to rest on the passing mark.but it's ok.i can do it.

jangan pandan belakang was a serioussss waste of money.ok so maybe it was a little shocking at times, and maybe i did wrap my big red towel over my head and screamed once, but overall i thought it was bullocks cause it had no storyline at all.and the whole ending was so anti-climax.it just ended there.

and everytime when im thinking of something that intrigues me, i always remind myself to blog about it.but thennnnn....i dunno.

2007-05-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

This is bad.I have an obsession with this dude.No, serious! Thing is, he shifts blocks for a living.And that's pretty much all he does, really.

BLOCK DUDE.

And I never knew GCs could be this fun.It's gotten to this level where it's beginning to freak myself out.I even googled the solutions because I cannot get this shit out of my mind.And even as I type, my GC's placed rightfully beside me, because now, Im taking a break.

Plus it's not that I have so much free time on my hand, in fact i dont.I have math and econs tutorials and a gp test tmr and I've got to sleep cause im running 2.4 first thing in the morning.

So Im still fascinated by my GC and its cool functions.HA! like the organizer, in which i dutifully stored my house telephone no. and address just in case.hahaha.AND there's some shit stuff in ESPANYOL which is like woah since i loveeeeeee spain.

GC's are the sex.period.

2007-05-02T20:52:00.000+08:00

Ahhh stupid stupid math.History, Econs and math tests tmr.how lovely.I suck at APGP so dont come telling me it's easy crap cause it's not, you bodohs.

Else I will push you down and laugh at you loud loud.

And then I punch you, okay? :D

2007-05-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

See ytd I planned out my whole itinerary for the hol.Overslept, so screw the whole damn thing.Dad left for jkt so in the end no fam outing.And i was too malas to go to the beach with the rest.So I mugged with pops at compass's starbucks.Or at least tried to.

And then zaki came.I swear he'd just die if not for the girls ard him.

and im still here, on the comp slacking despite a full GP paper to do that's due tmr.

2007-04-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

School work 's fuck okay.The tutorials from last month are haunting me and im hopelessly lost in math and econs and lit which are basically my main subjects.And it doesnt help that soccer practices are really just plain torture at its peak.I swear at times I feel like laying flat on the field and just stare the clouds.

Butttt I'm not actually complaining cause I love soccer cause the company's fun and we do silly things like play catching at the cafe and the track and laugh over the silliest things.

Of couse of course, I miss Bowen drama truckloads:( cause nothing can ever, EVER come close to the dumbshit things we do like the haunted house at the performers' lab or the roller chairs race around the 4th floor with Marcus as both the ghost and the chair puller every single time.

2007-04-18T21:54:00.000+08:00

So our match didnt turn out expected.Yes, we lost.And as much as I would just love to deny this and rant about the ref,the pitch and whatever else excuse I can think of to just relieve myslef, vj was the better team today.

But we have 5 more games to go, yes FIVE.So c'mon SR.haha

School days are pretty spastic but I'm having a ball.

2007-04-12T23:13:00.000+08:00

Pretty much everyone's being a bitch right now.

That's how my life is, if you even care, thanks.

2007-03-18T20:12:00.000+08:00

School starts tomorrow.Guess where I'm at? SRJC SRJC !!!*gets high over stupid school cheer*

OMFG.Can you freaking believe I'm there? Worst of all, that I freaking CHOSE to remain there, despite my TP appeal?haha.I used to never want to go there because it's so bloody near which is soo ironic since the distance factor is now the main reason to why I want to stay.

And I actually think it's quite fun.

SRJC ALL FOR YOU, YOUR CALL IS OURS TOO

(:

2007-03-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

Don't you ever ask why I chose what I chose.Before I begin regretting what I did and then I'll just start crying non-stop.

I've been dying to ride that ferris wheel at the themepark at hg mall there but Cai said that it was $8 per ride or smthg like that.Gawd, what a scam.

So anyways, we had some CEC camp in school today and it was well..... alright lahs.It was supposed to bond us all together but at the end of the day, I dont think thaaat much bonding was really accomplished.Maybe cause it was just a few hours and many of us are still used to our OG mates.

But I really do miss Bowen.Not the fucked up school system but the all-too-familiar company which I seem to have grown on for the past 4 years.

I heard thecollege's drama's collapsing this year or smthg like that, which meannns no syf participation which means their drama's shit.

Which also means, haha, that I'll most likely continue soccer.Which also also means that I'd have to start excercising and start training and all cause my skills and stamina are soooo bloody rusty cause the last game I played was like what, in July last year?

And school hasnt even started and I'm already behind in econs cause I missed the 9am lecture thanks to my lovely cousins who wanted to all overnight at the chalet and so I managed to only catch a few zzz cause we were busy playing Volleyball& slacking at the beach...OHOH and trying to speak in KakNab's "language" which is neither malay nor is it english anddd yeah.

Tmr's my day in.The♥ 's coming over to watch some DVD's and I hope that it'll rain cause I just love sipping hot choc on a cold rainy day.Dont you?

2007-03-10T19:37:00.000+08:00

I TOOK IT IN MY STRIDE and had fun.

2007-03-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

My nerves are all over the place.Literally .I have never been this vulnerable, ever.No matter how fucked up things got, I still manage to keep collected and think optimistically.But recently,I'm just beginning to crawl into the realm of paranoia- an emotion I swore never to succumb to.I have kept vigilant by my phone, jumping at every phone call, hoping for it to be an unfamiliar number, bearing good news.

I have absolutely no idea what to expect tomorrow or friday.I'm just hoping for the best really.Personally I thought everything went smoothly today, except for that shitty TSD qualifying test which was just mental torture.In no way has any of my 4 years worth of drama experience applicable to this.I could have just died.

And I do not want to remain in SR.It's not about the pride, in fact it's quite pratical since its so near and all.It's just that if I go there and I dont get into Uni I'll just waste my whole life cause I can never achieve my dreams.Screw all that motivational talk about failing and picking youself up again.It's bullocks and you damn well know it.

Because life's a bitch and it always will be whether we like it or not.She's mean and unfair and we should all go kill her now.RAHHHH.

So wish me luck, for success in my appeal.Though I doubt any of you would even care, for my life has nothing to do with yours.For all I know, you'd be silently cursing me with your cruel wishes for my appeal to be denied.But then now you're just mean and unfair and we should all go kill you now.RAHHHH.

2007-02-14T10:39:00.000+08:00

& now, I feel like blogging again.I've sworn to keep this page alive, maybe not kicking, but alive nonetheless.

My results were a mixture.I find my physics and chem results ludicrous, to the point where even I am dumbfounded and all I can do is laugh.Just laugh.But that's that and so long as I make it in tpjc to do theatre studies& drama therem, I'm a happy happy girl.

I know I wanted mj initially, buttttt I'd have to take subjects I've never taken before and their promotion criteria is damn strict and I'm already beginning to feel the stress so I guess it's better off to pass .And I can qualify for Mass Comm and the activities are really what I'd just love to do and Hirzi's persuasion and convincing is so hard to put aside butttttt I'm still contemplating between law and that soooo I guess the its the jc route for me.

The clique's been seperated, not that we've so much remained as one after school has ended but yeah, the girls and I have all chosen seperate paths.Cept for sheereen, who will be stuck with me for another 2 years should i enter tpjc :D

Oh and its valentine's day today.

2007-02-05T21:09:00.000+08:00

OMFG LAH.Results are out this Friday.FRIDAY! THIS FREAKING FFFRRRIIIIIDDDAYYYYY.

Anyway Cai Ling, you owe me one big time.I mean it.Forgetting about Ewan& I, unforgiveable okay.But because I'm such a nice soul, you're off the hook biatch.

And I was conversing with Jia Yu about flirting to the point when she said that she doesnt flirt.Seriously, need I mention kayaks ?

Sheereen's supposed to have coffee at the office cause she wants to meet Subhash.See, pantat, it's one of these perks you get when you've been appointed as the Chairman of the FEF committee.But then again, she's been MIA so yeah.

To the other best friend, cheer up.We'll gather the entire syndicate one day. and wreck the town.BUT we shall not name it Syndicate BAT.

2007-02-03T19:34:00.000+08:00

Maybe it is true that we all live behind a mask painted the way we want it to be.To only display our competence and to hide our flaws.

Sometimes, no matter how perfect our lives appear to be, it's really not.

For the first time in months perhaps, I actually had a good time crying my eyes out.Just everything that has happened recently suggests that I deserved it.

They're all tiny matters that come in a tremendous amount at one go.They'll blow over, that I'm sure.But like I said, it was nice to just curl up and weep sometimes.

Then of course, there's always Buble who never fails to come fly with me.

oh,Hirzi proposed to do a get together performance and all.

Ironically, despite my merit malay, I really really want to do those classics.With the dinda and kanda and patek and beta.The ones with the Puteri and dayang-dayang singing in the palace garden, where them men were brave,charming and could belt out a tune that will just melt you.
Plus the elaborate traditional costumes and majestic istana stage sets.

nyahhhh.I want!

2007-02-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

Kallang Crowd

Proud to say, I managed to catch the 2nd leg semis and the 1st leg finals at the National Stadium and the whole atmosphere was just overwhelming-the 55 000 patrons, the 9 honks followed by our favourite two syllable word, the wave and everything else

semis;
Lionel went left;they went crazy.

finals;
Apparently, throughout the whole entire game, Cai Ling was supporting the wrong player.In an attempt to cover up for that, she decided to grope Indra Sahdan.Which-for some reason or another- she claims is better that Hirzi groping Macdonalds because she likes to do her dirty work discreetly.

And all the drama that happened was ridiculous really.I cant help but point out the Thais' lack of professionalism and sportsmanship.

For all our sakes lions, win the damn cup.

2007-01-23T13:53:00.002+08:00

The view from the 30th.

Amazing, really.And I get my own office too. Well not exactly, but the room where they stored the Nicoll Highway files.I get this magnificent view of the padang, river, cbd district and, well, the whole of singapore quite frankly.

This whole attachment program isn't exactly fun.But its really interesting and laid back.Plus, I get to be decked in a tailored suit+ heels and eat at the Academy Bistro and walk with the big-ass lawyers and go to prison this thursday!Everyone here is just lovely and while there isnt really anyone that's about my age -'cept that guy who studies in aussie, he's 17 too, but he's just weird- the atmosphere is not awkward or anything.The only downside about this is the trip to and from work.The crowd is just so annoying.It's cramped and smelly; and i mean really smelly.

And yeah, this beats BG hands down.BG is soooooo monotonous, which aside from the cute babies and rich yummy mummies with their luxurious lifestyle ( of which I cringe with envy, every time), I have nothing to look forward to.
The hours here are shorter, lunch break better and I get to do my own things most of the time when I dont have to go to court.

So when I grow up, I think I want to be a lawyer.For now, at least.

2007-01-23T13:53:00.001+08:00

2007-01-23T13:53:00.000+08:00

2007-01-18T15:46:00.000+08:00

And as always, despite the countless promises to constantly update my blog, I have abandoned it for almost 2 weeks already?

Well, the past two weeks have been eventful, beginning with the much anticipated resignation from the job.But I must say, working there has taught me a couple of valuable things like ironing, cleaning and folding garments, aside from the basics of cashier duties and sales procedures.I now can say that I am an excellent fold-er, if there is such a term.Hey, I managed to fold my entire wardrobe in 1.5 hours-which is a magnificent feat if you've seen the atrocious state of my closet, right Sheereen?

This one week after my resignation was meant for me to erm, loose weight and recuperate.hah.I'm still pretty much stuck to my late night routines of hot choc&DVD, albeit myself, but it's really just lovely cause it's been raining lately.

And and and, I'm going for my internship next monday! Mixed emotions, as usual, nervous yet so damn excited.lalalalala.

Am currently at Nenek's place.Tanned in the morning and body scrubed and all, courtesy of Mummy.Nenek's funny, she keeps insisting I lose weight if not I'll grow up fat and obese but at the same time demands that I finish the spaghetti + 135468435 begadels she made specially for me.

2007-01-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

Goodbye My Friend

Sent Chris off at the airport today, with Hirzi Cai Ling and Ruth.It was a small farewell, she didnt inform many people.Irregardlesss of the things that have happened, she has still been a great friend and I thank her alot for all the things she has done for me.

Dinner with Cai Ling and Hirzi was just filled with a hell lot of laughter , as per normal.And the bus ride home with Hirzi got me thinking about some things I never knew I was thinking of in the first place.He may be loud and annoying to strangers but really, he is a wonderful friend.Thank you for your post and believing that I can do well.Hopefully,I will.

2007-01-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

THE LOVE

starbucks+esplanade+merlion+pretty pretty lights+camera+tourists+dirty couple+ gedek kid+strange guy+TPJC mugger+ kind man who gave us $1+photographs+small talk+ two realllyyyyy hot girls+ zaki = bliss.

haha.and once again, as always, we saved zaki!

otice the chubby kid with me.he's soo god damn adorable.

our new friend!

Speaking of friends, its nice that some of my close buds are still in close proximity, literally.Like Joey@ Liat Towers Zara, Ong@ Paragon,Zaki@ JL Specialist's Building and though Jia Yu's @Suntec, its still not thaat far.Oh and back home, Cai Ling's just 10 mins away.

Im resigning on the 15th!Its been such a drag pulling my arse to work everyday which aside from the cash, has also kindly blessed me with eyebags and a massive pimple breakout.I seriously need some ME time to rest.Life's been pretty much hectic ever since Os ended with the prom and drama and work.

Worst of all, me and sher didnt even get to execute our train plan and visit Lakeside.

2006-12-20T21:56:00.000+08:00

The job's been a chore, somewhat.It's a mere routine repeated on a daily basis.And quite frankly, i got sick of it a day after i started.It's not about the sales.See, the sales are actually the most happening.It's really where I get to learn new things-the small talk with customers and entertaining their kids.But its just that we do the same damn shit every single day over and over again.Where's the excitement?But that aside, work has thought me alot though.Punctuality(i'm never late ok.5 mins early, always),Discipline, Neatness and that I'd better study really hard later on so that I can model after the customers that walk in.

I'm talking well-groomed sophisticated hot mums that enter decked in Prada wear,Louis Vuitton carriers ,their Jimmy Choo CASUAL FLIP FLOPS and Chanel sunglasses(which are, of course, the absolute best) ,taking out their Gucci purses and obviously, paying with the Platinum.

And so I am dying to begin my attachment to Harry Elias Partnership in Jan.I'm still doubtful of my future career choice - if or not law should be pursued.Apparently, this attachment should help me clarify those doubts and all.I was having a discussion with mom about this and she said that I'll get bored after awhile.Point to prove- lawyers are boring people.Similar to accountants, they're always the butt of career jokes.They're dressed in their monochrome suits(black only) and lead very career driven lives too busy to indulge themselves in other leisure activities and whatnots.But, this is just a stereotypical description from a certain perspective, maybe.

Maybe I can go dressed in pink!Like Elle Woods.And while I'm at that I could also learn the BEND AND SNAP!

ooooh.

Production aftermath picture's will be up soon.Perhaps after work tomorrow.

Off day today was wonderfully spent with Cai Ling and Sher watching You,Me and Dupree and Devil Wears Prada.Oh and eating cake and Maggi and Lays and Ruffles with Coke and Zappel.And tell me, how am i going to not get fat?

2006-12-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

Drama Production- Part I

2006-12-09T21:20:00.000+08:00

PRODUCTION'S TOMORROW

I'm feeling asudfhgpuirgb right now.Its hard to identify a single emotion in this confusing concoction.Im ecstatic that now, we're finally able to showcase our talents together as Bowen Drama Sec4s for the very last time.But at the same time, I'm all gloomy&emo cause it's our last performance together.ughhh.

Im sure it'll turn out good.

Hopefully.

Im really so emo right now.That I think I might even just cry tomorrow cause I'm gonna miss them all so bad.Memories of all our ups and downs together.

AWWWWWWWWWWW :(

2006-12-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

So Much Drama

And of course, I mean that in a good way. Performance this sunday by we Sec4s are going to be the BESTEST BEST BEST BEST EVERRRRR.Because we have put in a he-you-gee amount of effort in perfecting evreything we possibly can.

Oh wells.

2006-12-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

Strike The Previous Post

Veets accident just had to ruin my night.Now I'm stuck with this patch for at least a week!UGH.

2006-12-04T20:16:00.000+08:00

As if that's not a big deal

I'm really really happy right now. As in random happy.random random random happy.

No, I'm not in love.

I'm just happy.

So be happy, cause I'm happy.

2006-12-02T20:05:00.000+08:00

I'm getting to the prom pictures soon enough- after i've uploaded it, that is.I know I'm pretty late buttt the cam's not with me and plus, I've been busyy.In the mean time, some random shots of us.

The Days After

2006-12-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

Yes, i am sexy.lol.Even if i am a little pudgy eh.Point is, im back blogging!

It's already two weeks into this much awaited hols and I have been busy busy busy.Initially it was the prom planning, which turned out way beyond awesome ! Pictures from my cam will be up soon although there were some random shots of me jumping and dancing around like a mad woman on najib's blog.But just to clarify that, it was an inside joke thing between me and cai ling, so i do not have a dance ritual whatsoever.haha.Nonetheless, being a good sport, I must admit that the pictures were hilarious- even if they are on the www. Its just another thing added to my The Embarrassing Things I do list.

Now I am jam packed with drama practices that are everyday from 9 to 5.Its almost like a job, without the salary.But of course, it comes with sheer satisfaction when we perform it next sunday.Exciting exciting!

I miss late night buds though. We three have all been busy lately and we havent went out as a trio since my birthday which was wayy back in August): Jia Yu has her AK activities, Zaki's in camp and I have drama.Soo...

On a brighter note, Im heading out with Reks this Wed!And then maybe we'll drop by Harith's farewell to erm, bid him farewell.And meet some more of my primary school melayu kids!

Anyways, my Gol&Gincu's out of stock at that VCD store in Heartland which is just so sad cause I really wanted to watch it.Sharifah Amani's in it and I love love love her in Sepet and Gubra.

And because I can never carry around extra cash-I'll either spending it on food or cab fare- I bought the book The Zahir!Which had this hype going on with people like from my cikgu to zaki to my cousin and aunt.So it has to be a good read, worth the money.

Oh, MOS is really not thaat big of a deal.I was working as a butler for my cousin's company-which btw pays quite well for an easy job- and there was this fashion tv fuction there.And I met Jade Cole-yes ANTM Jade- who was quite friendly really, despite her being the bitch in cycle 6.So, I got to roam around MOS a little and although the deco's nice and all, it stinks of alcohol and cigarettes so I really dont see what the big deal is about hanging around in clubs.Im more of laugh over coffee kinda person.

I have to get some serious sleep because I have been so sleep deprived lately, and we have a rehearsal at NAFA tomorrow!

"everything you can imagine is real" -Pablo Picasso